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“Above Water”
completed on 9.19.24

like a kite
I feel you lift me
but when you’re breeze fades
i come crashing down

sometimes into a tree
where i can cut myself free
sometimes to the ground
where i can be found

but now i’m sinking underwater
swimming back to you for air
i watch every bubble float away
like moments that can’t ever repeat

waves crashing over me
sinking deeper into the sea
but you’re my life raft
always saving me like witchcraft

like a fish out of water
i’m fighting for air
but you pick me up
saving me time and again

sometimes i’m drowning
but you remind me everything’s ok
your light shines through the darkness
helping me find home

everything’s brighter with you
nothing’s ever felt so true

“Lifeline (always you Aubree)”
completed on 7.10.24

​i’ll keep looking for flowers 
if you keep your eyes on the clouds
i’ll always help you reach for the stars
if only to show you this life’s beauty

​i’ll do anything to help you
it’s easy to explain why
’cause this life is darker when you’re away
the sun ​fades behind the clouds without you

that smile ​that lights up my face
is always harder to find without you
and the second hand ​always slows
whenever​ i’m not with you

​not sure when i can say this
but i hate every second without you 
’cause ​i dream up clever distractions 
but they ​never come close to you

​’cause ​my future’s always brighter 
on days I spend with you
memories on my phone ​will​ never do
you are the only thing that’s true

​and I’ll keep treading water 
i’ll be the boat to keep you afloat 
since you, I no longer need 
anything ​else supporting me

​even when the ground ahead​’s shaking
i’ll always be your guide
always be by your side
so you’ll never feel alone

“For My Daughter:”
completed on 5.17.24

i almost wrote these words using my tears
but she deserves so much more
blood is thicker than water
so i’ll write this straight from my heart

you and i created something better
than the sum of our two parts
her life outshines
the brightest parts of you or I combined

i thought about moving
see if i could rebuild and find myself again
but the only place that ever feels like home
is when I’m close enough to help her when she’s sad

the door to our past dead-bolted shut
but i’m no longer looking in the rear-view
my route now lit by her sunlight
bright enough to illuminate my darkest night

just because I can’t hear her cry when she’s away
doesn’t mean I ever stop listening
i always want to know she’s ok
i’d do anything to let her stay

chorus
the hourglass sand falls faster every day
it only slows when she’s away
life is better when she’s by my side
she saves me from life’s landslides

“Mirrors (reflections pt. 1)”
completed on 4.25.24


i stare blAnkly through every mirror
’cause i can’t see the trUth anymore
eyes lost in the cracks and imperfections
until i can’t help but Believe what i see

the teaRs running down my face
are the only thing rEminding me i’m alive
’cause nothing’s worse than feeling numb
so i’ll let my Emotions keep cutting me apart


they say don’t believe everything You see
but it’s harder to dOubt when yoU never hear
Anyone speak up defending me
stuck with the noise inside my head


BRIDGE
CHORUS

i used to Rely on mirrors to help them see
but that’s skin-deEp so no one ever sees
what truly matters to Me
like the things that help me feel free


Just know, mirrors don’t always reflect the truth
when you lose your faith and only feel doubt
trust the light you see in my eyes
’cause the flame when i see you’ll never wane

BRIDGE
all i could see was shattered glass
until You saved me from my past


CHORUS
it took your love to remind me
smoke & mirrors only reflect the past
you make my cracks and imperfections
refract the most stunning LIGHT
x2

“Train Wreck”
revised on 7.14.23
there was a time, when you and I
drove in the same direction
but somehow along the way
i became a passenger in our train


then you threw me out
like baggage soaking in the rain
now i’m walking down the track
away from you, away from you


and when I think my life is a mess
something I know i’ll try to suppress
i’ll look back and see
the worst of us left in the debris


but when you look back
you’ll derail off the track
and i will flee
long before you can catch me


’cause you can’t slow down
your anger will flip you upside down
yeah, you can’t slow down
now you’ve wrecked in a ghost town

and you can’t backtrack
you burned the bridge in the attack
you can blame me
but i’m not the one who refused therapy


blare your horn
i’ve already heard all your scorn
so angry you didn’t even check
you created this train wreck


you’ve got nowhere left to go
maybe you should have thought of
pulling the brakes long ago
and when you crash
it won’t be an accident
the true crime’s you gave up on me

“Train Wreck”
written on 4.18.23

there was a time when you and I
both held the steering wheel
but somehow along the way
you made me a passenger in our train

then you threw me out
battered and bruised
now i’m running down the track
away from you, away from you

you’re speeding down a one way
but I’m not afraid
‘cuz you’ll derail
long before you catch me

’cause you can’t slow down
your anger will end up
flipping you upside down
our faults pouring out

Chorus:
and you can’t backtrack
you crossed that bridge
now you blame me
but I’m not the one who refused therapy

blare your horn
screaming what you think
so angry you don’t even check
i’m leaving this train wreck

Bridge:
you’ve got nowhere left to go
maybe you should have thought of
using the brakes long ago

and when you crash
all your lies in the debris
it’s not an accident
the only crime’s you gave up on me

“The Ledge”
written on 11.13.22

i want you to know
life will give you doubts
but no matter what life throws in your way
my love for you will always stay

when you face dark times
feel like your world is crumbling/ending
i’m here to light the way
to guide you through the fray

CHORUS:
when life pulls the rug from under your feet
know it can’t sweep you off your feet
there’s nothing you can’t defeat
i’m always here so you won’t fall
protect you above all

from the hope of each new day
to the sunset of those old dreams
to the stars lighting your night
i’ll help you burn bright

our feet in stride
your hand wrapped in mine
nothing in this world i won’t do
nothing i won’t help you through

if you ever find yourself sliding
know i’m already running after you
jump off any ledge to help you
so you never feel blue

“Hope”
written on 10.2.2022

there’s a storm brewing inside your head
sadness is all you see ahead
the downpour of the rain
comes directly from your pain
stronger than a hurricane

i’d do anything so you don’t feel sad
left love notes on your notepad
wish i could help you see
everything i know you could be
your beauty always brings me to a knee

you’ve given my life so much hope
helped me when i couldn’t cope
wish i could do the same
place all your pain into a flame
show you the gorgeous woman you became

open up the vault to your heart
i’ll show you a new start
there’s things, like time, i can’t steal
but i can help you heal
show you a love that’s real

i don’t care the crime
i’d do anything to buy us time
steal the heartache from your heart
’cause we’re better together than apart
we’re better together than apart…

“Capsize”
completed 8.15.22

i fought through thick and thin
built a relationship strong as Noah’s Ark
wish we could just find a win
but we just cannot rekindle our spark

you gave up and lost my trust
left us rocking in the wake
now i feel nothing but disgust
now we’re sinking in a lake

this note is simply to say
i deserve to find better
skip your acting on Broadway
this is no love letter

we’ve become a sinking ship
we tipped ’cause of our faults
our fights caused us to flip
problems locked inside our vaults

got stranded far too long in rough waters
arguments that spun/rocked our boat
capsized in whitewater, now our love’s underwater
nothing now can keep us afloat

“Broke Down”
written 7.28.22

you rode shotgun by me for years
we could always outrun the storms and dark
now the raindrops on my windshield are tears
falling when two hearts lose their spark

stranded on the side of the road
our fights spin us in circles, now we’re lost
what’s left of us is getting towed
a love choked out in the exhaust

you said we were beyond repair
told me everything was all my fault
gave up on us as if you never cared
regrets tattooed like burnouts in our asphalt

now i’m throwing my life into fifth gear
racing ahead to a better life
know now our past is better in the rear
headin’ to a love that won’t jackknife

and some nights all i have is regret
wished when our crash hit the airbags
this duet now just an empty threat
just caused us to wave a white flag

now there’s nothing left of you and me
pieces of us strewn like debris