Posts Tagged ‘despair’

“To the Bottom and Back”

Posted: February 12, 2013 in Lyrics, Poem
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“To the Bottom and Back”
completed on 2.11.13

i see the shock of losing her
in every destructive choice i made
everything i believed in bleeding out
a wounded heart desperate to heal

i drowned out every symptom
hoped the thrill of a new love
would wash out a loss i could not bear
embedded interest in their eyes
romanticized and always untrue

i cut corners, i got lost
i let my soul pay the cost
i didn’t let my heart pause
to deal with the underlying cause

emptiness expanded over
a tower’s shaky base
settled for any pieces close to me
forced fits fighting to stay upright

i cut corners, i got lost
i let my heart pay the cost
now that i survived the storm cloud
it’s finally time to make her proud

“Alone”

Posted: November 3, 2012 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Alone”
completed on 11.3.12

it’s just one of those nights
the sky’s painted midnight blue
the air frigid to the bone
the perfect conditions for feeling all alone

every song i play
and every show that’s on
is just another reminder
that i’ve got no one to call my own

i pretend my phone’s turned off
’cause it almost helps me feel better
that no one is trying to get in touch with me
that no one is here to talk to me

i’ve been told she’s out there
but with every night that passes
i feel a little bit older
and a whole lot more alone

i feel my heart brighten
wrapped in the warmth of your company
but as the night comes to an end
i fade back to my lonely room

i can hear the voices and laughter
of people on some street next to me
but i’m the one bleeding hope
stuck in this vacant alley isolating me

i cling to a complete stranger
just to feel her heartbeat
i’m trapped sinking in this sand
lost feeling deserted and desolate

i was born to be a loving gentleman
so nothing feels worse
than having to live just for myself
what i would give to feel the lips of my last first kiss

“Incomplete #2”

Posted: August 25, 2012 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Incomplete #2”
completed on 8.24.12

i don’t know why tears form every time
romantic movies play before my eyes
maybe it’s because i dream of the day
when true love will finally come my way

i watch the sun rise and fall
another day that’s come and gone
there is nothing i could ever achieve
better than feeling love wash over me

i’ve changed cities
i’ve changed states
i’ve tried everything
but i’m still incomplete

i’ll climb another mountain
swim across another sea
anything to find your love
anything to have you notice me

i can’t skip to the good part
where you finally fall in love with me
i have to wake up another day
and hope to find you shine on me

just know i’m on my hands and knees
praying today’s the day that we meet
i’ll try everything
because without you i’m still incomplete

“At My Door”

Posted: December 16, 2011 in Lyrics, Poem
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“At My Door”
written on 12.15.11

at my own front door
but it won’t open for me
’cause it’s locked
and it seems that you’re my key

i should know better by now
then to allow love to keep me out
but my heart won’t beat without
knowing if she’ll come about

i gave up on love long ago
strung along for far too long
decided to just let go
tired of settling for only so-so

but then your hazel eyes
and warm smile
made me feel butterflies
pictured us walking down the aisle

but then i blink
not sure that you care
guess i have to rethink
if this was just a one-sided love affair

at my own front door
not sure if it will unlock
i’ll be in shock
until i know if our hearts will interlock

“Breach”

Posted: November 25, 2011 in Lyrics, Poem
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“Breach”
written on 11.24.11

i’m almost 28 and i can’t stand this strife
i pictured my future wife
expected more out of my life
thought i would accomplish so much more
didn’t expect to have to guess at the door

all i want to feel free
but i’m not sure what that means to me
i can’t figure out who to be
it’s not in any book
or anywhere i seem to look

i feel trapped inside a cage
feel so much older than my age
if i ever want to find the key
i need to find the happiness inside me
start dreaming of who i will be

i need someone who has heart
appreciates life and sees it as moving art
i love when you open up to me
that’s how we were meant to be
love as immovable as a tree

my smile is the key to my soul
happiness is not my only goal
i want to burn so bright
but sometimes it takes all my might
to try to be their light

i want to wrap myself in your love
fly free like a dove
i admire all the lives that you’ve reached
all the hearts that you’ve breached
but you still have so much more to teach

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