“Smile”
written on 5/27/07
she said, ‘don’t do that,
you’ll lead them on’
‘don’t you dare hug them,
it’s all so wrong’
‘i don’t like it when you talk to her
and hang out with them.’
but i took her pill, the kind that drained my soul
i could feel the change as my personality crumbled away
her kindness could taste so sweet
that i overlooked the bitterness of her jealousy
i watched the social circles that once surrounded me
become the noose around my neck of her control
suffocating under her scrutiny
the affection she gave was just enough for me to breathe
but now i’ve freed myself of her iron grip
i feel my leaves begin to regrow
my roots grow deep in this brand new soil
as i show my once forbidden smile
transient 